Abaddon


Is it night or is it day, I cant seem to tell anymore, all the colors seem so muted. A wailing of vexation, the clouds of thunderous silence, forming closer than I’d hoped. The bastardization of a malicious incantation, fix me now, sweet sounding deviation. Hindrance gaining ground, passions waning, secret of the artforms, commiseration. Populace now populating, this pestilence of the damned in waiting. See me from whence I came, to bleed me dry a final flame, senseless truth a crying shame. Feed the bewildered beasts, of festered meats, slurping and slobbering, time to stoop the hollowing, go reap the wallowing. Entwined, I do break bread, err to whisper, do i feel dead. Spent and warn, failure of the first born, set upon, the seekers swarm. The king of locusts comes, bringing torment, and lamentation, laying waste to all creation. Abaddon, the place of destruction, with sands of crumbling flesh and bone, lightning strikes glassing these fields of omen. The beast comes to bear, seated at the head of the table, with Kain and Abel. It’s the last supper now, with remnants of decay, fear not this coming age, the world is ours, so give it rage.

Bloom


Who can say, when a lifes in full bloom. Do we decide, or does the world tell us when we’re set in the perfect spot. Do we sit and bask in the sun at the summit, or foot of the mountain. Is it us that casts the shadow, or do we starve in the dark overhang of another we find greater. I know what I choose, so let us all sit at the giants table, even if we are small, we all have the potential to cast a shadow a mile long. And make it so, the smallest lonely flower, atop the greatest of ranges, is the height of excellence.

Archetype


Who am i…..
Am i lost, a wanderer cast out doomed to venture further and further into the wastes of a mind only comsumed by darkness.
To have such capacity for good, and yet so demonstratively brutal a vicious intent. towards hate and artfully disseminated machinations of destruction. I have touched down where others thought not possible, to fall down a bottomless pit only to prove wrong the will of man. To be insane and realize it, truth lies in reality, lying in wait to steal unkempt breaths. fearing time, though time does not exist, but in the mind, an idea, an abstraction, a custom of knowledge, the cadence of curtailed freedoms self expression. Systemic of its intention to breed more dishonest foreboding epitaphs of humanity’s hubris. I have nothing but contempt for the human species, this race of desiccation, greed and monotony. Crude and crueler fates align, eloquently baroque beauty of selfless inhibitions, over arching narratives bleed for bleeding sake. Forgetting the one fact that stakes claim to the heart of true providence, incredulity.
Master of wanting but master of none, narrow your vision, quiet discontentment. Grasp but one thing attainable, to use as steping stones to reach the next trial that awaits.
Who is this…who am i becoming now….
I plug my ears, listening to my heart beating, and yet i can’t feel it, until i think about feeling it. Such a limited mind we have, and we expect of ourselves, to know it all. how many kilobytes of useful knowledge do we possess in this zetabyte ad infinium system we call a mind. Most can’t even string together a few paragraphs worth let alone make a cohesively affective argument. So I guess it could be said I take my literary and standard intelligence for granted; then again I’ve structured a life that can be lived with such ease, an asured fate, that any lesser mind could lead it. so if i had my persistent cumulative intellectual growth halted or even reverted back to a time i still believed in fairy tales, would it really matter. Actually it might bring me some level of peace if thats what i wanted.
Though, what do I want, what is it I’m really after when all’s said and done. What I truly want is in the course of my routine self reflection, to for once, feel that i have something concrete i can offer. When you look under the veil of who i am in the world, this mask i present, you see a depth rarely legitimate in the eyes of this world. I keep relying on my own outdated ideals, to show nothing but let be discovered the real fathoms, the unbridled elation of finding, I am more than anyone thought possible. All this has never brought me happiness. I have only known misery in this life, because instead of the intended effect of discovery of hidden ability, it has only led me to becoming an expert at subversion. And in a world where most can’t see beyond a very narrow margin, I just seem as hollow as I allowed others to see me, as a being devoid of all things, never allowing anyone to discover that, which i have become master at cloaking…….

Stop looking


just for tonight stop looking……
to discover whats already here…
so where does my adventure begin,
what great ocean awaits….
i must first define what i need to stop looking for so i can know myself, but not what i imagine myself to
be, because the person i dream of, is an illusion blocking me from the truth. i imagine a man, great, noble, brilliant, but also; licentious, corrupted, and insane; i imagine a man wanting the best for the world, to see all suffering eradicated and true utopia arise as humanity reaches for its full potential, and yet; lustfully dreams of destruction for all things, to drag the world so far down, our eyes sufficate in the all consuming shroud of darkness, and the sounds of the dying…the cries of the dead…, become a continuum of agony, as dystopia desends upon humanity, they reach for the ashes of a broken future.
that is who i imagine i am….
but i also imagine a “real” version,
a secondary illusion…
i see a ghost, a watcher, moving through life on an empty train, looking out through the window, time moves fast, only lingering on the times i should have been, i often wonder; wandering from instant to
instant, why am i, who am i, where do i belong, the world turns to dust as i watch the home movies of my life over…..and over, trapped inside the misery of my own soliloquy. a solitary existance, carefully planning one move to the next, trying to avoid failure, but failing to start playing. i also see a shadow, silent, guarded, and afraid; quietly afraid of what i have to say, i fear I’m hiding who i am today, always living behind, the times eroding my memory, what do i do, when will be to late, why…..?, these things i say inside my head, as the world eclipses me, my eyes bleed, clearly i taste the bitter reality, all i have is nothing, a glass waiting and just that, the substance of my forfillment is unobtainable, and yet
inescapable….on a ghost train to nowhere…..
and now…….what is left?………

Quiet Rambling


I’ve learned so much, yet know so little, I speak so much lesser, then this disquieted mind can muster. Fevered dreams and fervent feelings, thine tongues twisted epithets, grace such cold dark spaces of this hollow universe. The graying of my eyes, an entropic merger of both light and dark, a consolidation of my shadow, with the neverending radiance of my soul. How hath thouest come to bear such great burdening, at the behest of the world. Why doth this time stand so devoid of mystery, adventure, and purpose. What is left in this world, but the lonely ancient remnants of a history forgotten.

Gate Guardians


Why do I feel like escaping so early in the morning, only to be sold on staying by the afternoon. It hurts so much this longing to be certain. The paradox of trying to hold on to the status quo, while your mind wonders beyond, reaching for more, for something new, a path of deeper meaning, one that brings greater purpose to a life gone dull, its edges blunted, and colors drained of vibrancy. Though, why do we fain such constrained fealty, to an existence growing colder by the day. Do we normalize, these empty versions, overlaying a world given a chance to succeed, a pareidolia, a phantom image, creating an environment we can tolerate. Though, in our tolerance, a languishing of present tense, rusts away a seemingly solid foundation, until, nothing is left, of the man you used to be. Do the mighty succumb to such encumbrances, or is the key to power a finding of this said certainty, yet the preclusion of nullified turbulence, can never be undone by a mere wanten desire alone. Its must take root, from base singularity to fully extended expression. So, when will I taste the delicious pleasures of fruitful ambition, learning to release my grasp on my petrifying old beliefs, and set sail, on a harsher, yet stronger current, rife with risk and danger, but in the end, non greater can be forged, but through the trials of their labours, being taken by difficulty, with the guardians at the gate of your attainment, the ghosts of all your past failures, standing as the greatest obstacles you must over come.

Master


This world might as well be the surface of mars to me, a barren unforgiving landscape, providing a neverending trial, of emptiness. Just pretend there’s no one here, just pretend your in a blank world, operate as if you, are the only actor left behind the curtain. Why simply stare, starved of enduring meaning, to be stricken with such cruel loneliness. To see the dull destiny that awaits, a premonition of bottomless ambition, devoid of solid ground, no further can I rise passed this fated day, beleaguered like the coming age, sidelined before I could even play. Raptured by the wrapping serpent, constrictor,  forcing my corpses heart to yet linger, beating beats beyond burden, grasping grown grievances gluttonous gorge, feeling fragments finely festering, deeply burrowing, sickening my state of mind. Drop the act, that everything is ok, destroyed now, just breathing in the pain. Go on now, master of the tamed…..

Neural pathway deactivation


Permanent inactivation of oversaturated neural pathways, leading to regressive damage in behavioral core synaptic networks. Relating to the mind state of anhedonia, though expressed in a more extreme context. The neurotic features, create a formless sensation, passing transcribed emotional coding into redundant structures. This mental apparatus, propagates a dissociative syndrome, fostering a suppressed status with short periods of psychotic outbursts. This neurodegenerative disorder, has potentially devastating and dangerous consequences if left to fester and grow. the oscillating current of suppressed and unsuppressed functions, could lead to a heightened potency of para psychological aspects of a subjects personality. Maintain vigilance and planning for worst case scenarios.

Seed Ships


Seed ships that carry human genetic components, removing the need for generational starships. These ships begin helical synthesis forming adaptive human embryos, with that appropriate properties given the xeno biology of the new exoplanetary habitat. Through a method of combining cybernetic, unique genetic structures or molecules to forming zygotic matrices, creating parallel sapien species subject to counter earth conditions. Efforts to make integration pathways to incorporate parallel clusters into existing human populations on earth, this must be a high priority, preventing dislocations in a pluralistic interplanetary civilization, aswell as increasing and strengthening genetic diversity, matching expansion balance growth equations. The negative outcomes of non reciprocal expansionism could lead to a singularity exponentially furthering biological latency and genetic stagnation postulated in the gene fatalist hypothesis.

Darkside Philosophy


                BEYOND GOOD \/ EVIL

UNITY \/ DOMINANCE

           CREATION \/ DESTRUCTION

Solomon\/ANGELIC|Amraphel\/DEMONIC

LIGHT        \/      DARKNESS    


1. Persecuted for Righteousness     1. Pride
2. Merciful / Peacemaker                  2. Wrath
3. Pure of Heart                                   3. Envy
4. Mournful / Rejoice                         4. Lust
5. Hungery after Righteousness   5. Gluttony
6. Meek                                                6. Sloth
7. Poor in Spirit                                   7. Avarice

                       BALANCE \/ CHAOS

1. Rapture                                      1. Agony
2. Tranquility                                2. Struggle 
3. Life                                              3. Death
4. Pleasure                                     4. Pain
5. Love                                            5. Hatred
6. Happiness                                 6. Sadness
7. Sanity                                         7. Madness
8. Peace                                         8. War
9. Benevolent                               9. Malevolent
10. Utopia                                      10. Dystopia

                          FAITH \/ CONTROL

1. Divine Truth        1. Forbidden Knowledge
2. Fear Abominations   2. Axis of power
3. Pure tongue               3. Enigma
4. Sabbath (7th Day)    4. Armag/Apocalypse
5. Honour Fa../Mo..      5. Lilith
6. Destiny/Fate              6. Mark of Kain
7. Betrayers Guilt        7. Iscariot Doctrine
8. Mercantilism          8. Mammons Conquest
9. Liars Poison              9. Machiavellianism
10. Covet Silence       10. Amraphel of Shinar

                     UNIVERSAL  HIERARCHY

ULTIMATE     / VOID \   ENTITIES

                                 \ / \ /        Chaos Barrier

Highest Order
1. Elohim / Allah                 1. Outer Gods
          /Divine\                                /Eldritch\
                  /ADJACENT PANTHEONS\
Transcendent                         Beings            
2. Seraphim / Cherubim    2. Salanh / Apophis
      /Dragon Class\                  /Leviathan Class\
3. Archangels / Angels    3. Archdemon/ Demon
       /Supernatural\                    /Supranatural\
                     /WANING CONTINUUM\
          Ascendant                          Beings           
4. Garden Kin / Man           4. Lilith kin / Man
           /Blessed\                           /Marked\
         /PROTO CORPOREAL FORMATION\
5. Extracorporeal Soul      5. Precursion Link
    /Divine Creation\              /Void Tether\
           /QUANTUM FIELD SATURATION\
           Primordial              Beings           
6. Luminous Accretion 6.Entropic Accretion
    /Pure Filament\      /Holographic Horizon\
             /UNIVERSAL EMBRYOGENESIS\

   Chaos Barrier      /    /\    \         First Seed 
                                /Singularity\

                     7. Yliaster / Prime Matter
                        /Convergence Sphere\
         /PREDECESSENT-PARTHENOGENESIS\

                     Hegemonic Recursion           

ULTIMATE      / VOID \      ENTITIES

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